Torn between things

Wonder how things could be different if you could had taken that deal.....or chose that not so beautiful girl with a heart of gold,rather than that dream girl with a selfish attitude .......or turn left rather than right......Have you ever wonder how your life could turn out to be than?How things could have been so different if you could have or should have,all the IFs and all the BUTs that drive your mind to second guess your decisions.Well i do wonder all the time.
Not too long ago,my life was blessed with confidence....full of energy,just being around me will make you want to be ME.The FIRE in my eyes and the burning desire can actually burn you if are close enough.I am always running around telling people how great my day was and people who had a bad day,bad week,bad year or even struggling to make it in their career should be positive. After all that is how i make it, just staying positive,focus and working hard on it, day in and day out on things i wanted.Well it did work for me. So people who listen to me tend to always filled charge up and are always ready to try out whatever i tell them.It is as if i am like their GURU or something. Some of them even tell me i should be a speaker like those millionaire motivator.Well i felt good on those commands and praises,it really make me feel i had make it this time with my never say die attitude. I felt i was on top of my game and nothing can change it and nothing bad will ever happened to me as long as i continued to be full of confidence and have a right working attitude,NOTHING can destroy what i buildup. But how wrong... how horribly wrong i was.
I remember that day was a pretty hot day and the guy who i hired to clear my office which i had rented for the pass 8 years was calling me on my mobile over and over again to see whether i had arrived to open the door.I was very reluctant to answer my mobile.Looking back i was probably scare to face the world that i am actually closing my business down which i had work so hard for,all those long hours and all those tears and sweat.I was trying to hide the fact that i felt lousy inside and my world around me is falling apart by telling myself and those close to me that it was the right choice and right thing to do.Well it did not work,the fact is i felt like dying and i could not do a damn thing about it.It was the worse day of my entire 37 years of living in this world.

Going against the giant...........i have been living in this country(Malaysia) of mine for the past 38 years and i sometimes wonder what is going on with our government? As i watched in horror on how the Malaysian police treated their own people on August 1st, i can't help but felt ashamed. As you should know by now i am referring to the demonstration on abolishing the ISA in KL. 1 Malaysia?What are they(the government) talking about? You see your own people being beaten up, drag, drain with chemical lace water and gassed, and you want us to believe in that slogan of yours.Please try harder......
The first think that come across my mind is whether those people are Malaysian or not? The way the Malaysian police treated them, is as if they are criminals. Shame on you, the police for acting the way you did. We the rakyat suppose to respect you for wearing the police uniform.We the rakyat suppose to trust you for wearing the uniform. You suppose to protect us but sad to say , you FAIL US BIG TIME as rakyats .
I just can't help myself from asking WHY? Why are you treating your own people like this?You talk about 1 Malaysia and you are behaving like big bullies.You are worst than thugs and criminals. You think by doing what you did will win you another vote in the next general election?I don't think so. You think by beating your own people will win you respect Mr Prime Minister? I don't think so. And do you think by arresting your own people will keep them quiet?I sincerely don't think so sir.
We want to live in peace and harmony.And i am sure those that are being beaten up and arrested wants that too. Why can't you see that?Are you too arrogant to see that? Well as i said i am truly ashamed to be a Malaysian today. And not until you the government of the day get your act together and stop acting like bullies you will not get my vote and i am sure i won't be alone of this.

Being the new kid on the blog......just want to welcome myself and whoever is reading this.I choose the name ' mine and yours heart to heart' is because a lot time we always wanted to say and do a lot of things but we never get to do it and share it.So this site is for those who wants to leave their thoughts,worries, happiness,great food ,whatever they have experience( good and bad).....etc...etc....etc.So don't be shy to say and share what's on your mine and lets start pouring out those hidden thoughts................